I feel i am alone. I thought i had ignored all unecssary dramas n people who created it n convinced myself i do not care anymore. But during my conversation with my aunt yesterday, i realised i didn't. I still Hate though i seem to forget as days goes by. I still cry and my heart still aches, alot.I heard my heart still crying, coz i used to love her so dearly. Perhaps i still do but my brain stops me coz she is unforgivable for the rest of my life for her actions n malign words which i do not tell the world about it.

And some young generation thinks that i do not treasure family ties n let monie ruined our relationship. I forgive them for thinking coz they are still young and it is unfair to drag them into this kinda complicated situations or making them hate certain people through your own assumptions, which i think is not right.

The truth is the truth. It is not right instigate younger generation or making them believe your version of story, making them believe Snow White is Evil kinda stuff.

When i was young, as in teenager, i tend to say " I WILL NOT, or DEFINITELY I WON'T DO SUCH THINGS" . But oh well, nobody can predict the future and i realise that, the road is still so long and as u grow older, u think differently after so many happenings and meeting people n Life changes. Your mind matured n u will look back n see yourself, perhaps laugh at your own childishness / foolishness. All these takes time, n true enough

Time Reveals The Truth And Ease The Pain.

I wish my mindset can remain as when i was young kid, no worries n so happy. Even bad people were such an angel to me. But i know i gotta accept this painful truth that time really reveals the UGLY TRUTH. But does Time Ease The Pain?! The pain might not be shown but the wound will be there , deep deep down in the heart. My heart still reluctant to accept this pain as much as my brain telling it " It is the truth", Is that why my heart still cries ?

I do not have to explain myself at all, but i just wanna justify myself by telling the truth, its the least i can do. Who likes to be malign? People can say "just ignore those false accusations". I KNOW I KNOW, but do u understand what i am going through???

Don't tell me u know or u r more pressured than me. U r not me!

I AM SO TIRED... i wanna run away from all these and go to a place where nobody knows me, run away from all these people, vanish from this world. Call me a coward, i do not care anymore.