Haven't been sleeping well recently, n wokes up quite early in the morning abt 8am. 2 weeks ago, before i got sick (virus infection), it was already been like this on n off. I am STRESSED OUT... too sad, too worried, too emotional.
DEPRESSED ...
I don't want to go back to those depression days. Honestly. i do not wish to. Those sad n lonely days when nobody was there for me, not even my closest kin. I can only weep at night, wetting my pillow with tons of tears. Nobody understand or know what i was going through or what had happened, perhaps nobody ever cared at all.
Anyway, i was not comfortable to tell anybody at all especially my personal stuffs. I am used to keeping all by myself , ya introvert. Sometimes i text myself about my own feelings, etc , scolding, encouraging myself or expressing my agony of missing someone but those texts were never sent out at all. They were sent to my heart, with no recipient or number. Yeah, weird huh ..
Its OK, I had gone over that stage. I am Glad. I Found Him..
My only reason to live on.
It is no longer dark out there anymore...
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