Dreams are not true ... Once i naively believe in what i dream, but the result is absolute different .
I saw you in my dream, and you gave me the hope and courage to be strong, thinking that i will be fine after that crucial one week.
I did what the doctor told me to do, i really did ... But ...
my hope is smashed by the doctor's first sentence to me .
I will never forget that sentence ....
I was uncontrollably depressed and tears just kept rolling down although i tried to control it...
Finally, i broke down ...
I really doesn't want to lose you at all ... But you gave up on me. Why ??
Just when i was at my lowest mood, crying my heart out. I received a call from my sis-in-law ... She said mummy had a bad fall from her bicycle and was sent to hospital.
Bro pick me n dear up and we sped to the hospital ...
Waited for 5 bloody hours ( we reached there at 9pm+ but only got to see her at 3am) before i see my mummy in so bad condition, her forehead had stitches and her left eye was swollen till she can't even open her eye.
Before we got to see her, i heard she was bleeding quite alot, i really can't imagine how her condition was. We can only wait and wait for 5 hours.
I was heart broken ... 5 of us were all heart broken. This is my first time to see one of my brother cried. For that moment, i blame myself, my mummy was worried about me, that's why she fell. ( She called me 2 hrs before her fall and i was sobbing ) I felt that it's all my fault, i shouldn't cry on the phone, i felt so guilty towards her, i shouldn't make her worry ...
Despite her condition, she still consoled me, asked me to take care of myself ...
I'm an unfillial daughter ...
But what matters most is that she's fine after all the screening and X rays.
I felt really relieved ... and she was discharged the next day.
Went straight home after i settled my own problem and see her . Decided to stay home this few days to take care of her, though weak but this is the least i can do for her.
I regretted ... making her worry about me.
I won't cry infront of her anymore ...
Mummy, please get well soon and stay healthy.
Promise i won't raise my voice at you when i'm angry... :(((
I saw you in my dream, and you gave me the hope and courage to be strong, thinking that i will be fine after that crucial one week.
I did what the doctor told me to do, i really did ... But ...
my hope is smashed by the doctor's first sentence to me .
I will never forget that sentence ....
I was uncontrollably depressed and tears just kept rolling down although i tried to control it...
Finally, i broke down ...
I really doesn't want to lose you at all ... But you gave up on me. Why ??
Just when i was at my lowest mood, crying my heart out. I received a call from my sis-in-law ... She said mummy had a bad fall from her bicycle and was sent to hospital.
Bro pick me n dear up and we sped to the hospital ...
Waited for 5 bloody hours ( we reached there at 9pm+ but only got to see her at 3am) before i see my mummy in so bad condition, her forehead had stitches and her left eye was swollen till she can't even open her eye.
Before we got to see her, i heard she was bleeding quite alot, i really can't imagine how her condition was. We can only wait and wait for 5 hours.
I was heart broken ... 5 of us were all heart broken. This is my first time to see one of my brother cried. For that moment, i blame myself, my mummy was worried about me, that's why she fell. ( She called me 2 hrs before her fall and i was sobbing ) I felt that it's all my fault, i shouldn't cry on the phone, i felt so guilty towards her, i shouldn't make her worry ...
Despite her condition, she still consoled me, asked me to take care of myself ...
I'm an unfillial daughter ...
But what matters most is that she's fine after all the screening and X rays.
I felt really relieved ... and she was discharged the next day.
Went straight home after i settled my own problem and see her . Decided to stay home this few days to take care of her, though weak but this is the least i can do for her.
I regretted ... making her worry about me.
I won't cry infront of her anymore ...
Mummy, please get well soon and stay healthy.
Promise i won't raise my voice at you when i'm angry... :(((
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