I am damn pissed off by my family members now ... n even more pissed off by their idiotic nonsenses !! Mum had been nagging at my ear about all those nonsenses which angered me alot, n i tell her off just now. Y m i even born in this family ?? Is it really chinese saying that i owed them during my previous life, that's y this life i have to return them ??
I don't really believe it but after all these years, i began to believe that it's true ...

I always had this feeling that i don't belong to this family ... Even asked mum before, did she pick me up from somewhere else when i was a baby?? I'm simply not attached to this place called "HOME". I don't feel the warmth at home , infact i feel pressured, depressed, pissed off , down ... For me my equation for Home is not HOME= HOME SWEET HOME ,
it's : HOME= SORROWS+ SORROWS...
I tend to frown at home and thus i laugh at work ... i don't wanna add my sorrows to my work.

PLEASE ... CAN I BE BORN IN A BETTER FAMILY IN MY NEXT LIFE (if there is) ... :(((

The only thing i feel happy is that i found my dear ... HE KEPT ME ALIVE, at least for now.
Only when i'm with him, i feel safe and secure... and he gave me the happiness i never had. REAL HAPPINESS ... feel very much PROTECTED.

To me ... HE IS MY GUARDIAN ANGEL ...